I had plans for today. Big plans. They included things like getting dressed! and going to the grocery store! and the library! and working out! But no, none of those things were accomplished. You know what I did instead? I sat in my PJs feeling like someone lit a match and threw it in my mouth, watching a boring episode of General Hospital, and eating Spiral Macaroni and Cheese. Now it's the late hour of 11:00 pm, and I'm ready for bed.

A few weeks ago, one of the people I babysit for says to me, "Kay tested positive for strep throat again! She just can't seem to shake it! Tee hee." While she may think this is amusing that her 2.5 year old is sick for the millionth time because she's never exposed to any of the right germs, the only thing I can think of is "WHY THE HECK AM I HERE?! Your kid is sick, with the only cure being antibiotics prescribed from the Doctor for which I have no insurance! ACK! DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO GO OUT FOR A MOVIE?!" From that point on I attempted to keep the child at an arms length distance, but I'm sure she managed to breathe in my direction at one point or another.

Yes, I'm one of those "40 million without health insurance" and yes it sucks. While the Dems and Repubs can't seem to get their act together long enough to put together a coherent sentence, I'm over here trying to not catch strep throat from snotty toddlers. This post isn't going to turn into anything political. I'm just going to leave it at that. This system is broken. SOMETHING needs to be done. And Nancy Pelosi is an idiot.

I went against my better judgement and googled the symptoms of "Strep Throat" and was horrified at the any number of diseases I could have. For about 5 seconds, I was pleased to see that usually strep does not come with a runny nose or sneezes, which I had, but have now mysteriously disappeared. Great.

If these kids were anywhere close to being nice and fun to be around, I might just be like "ah, these things happen when you work with kids." But these children are the spawns of all things evil. Everytime I walk out of there, I've been kicked, punched, molested, spit on, and little less sane than I was when I walked in. I try to explain their awful behavior to their parents who just laugh and say things like "oh he's going through a phase" or "oh kids! har har har. Doesn't this make you want to have them?!" No lady, it doesn't. In fact, it makes me want to rip my uterus out so children will NEVER happen to me!

You know what else I had big plans for? My life. Yeah. The plan was to go to my expensive 4 year college in NW Washington DC, major in something fabulous that will make me lots of money to pay back all the loans I took out, and then get a job after I graduate so I can start making all that money. Instead, I'm a nanny. A freaking nanny. Sure, the money is good, but it's not what I want to be doing! I'm supposed to be saving the world, one business problem at a time! I'm supposed to be having the time of my life, with a disposable paycheck! I'm supposed to be a big girl! I am so frustrated with the state of my life right now, it's ridiculous. This stupid economy is screwing up everything. And then they kick me off of my parents insurance to boot. I don't understand how that makes sense at all. I'm hating on life right now, I know. I don't need to be told, I know I'm acting like a raging bitch. It's the meds talking I tell you. The two nyquill I popped earlier are killers and make me say things out of rage. Wait, why are you laughing? That's all I can afford right now, OKAY?!

Right now, I'm going to go and watch last week's GLEE (because it, and only it, has the power to make me feel better right now) and try to get enough sleep so I don't want to kill myself tomorrow morning when I have to be up and babysitting at 7:40 in the morning. Please pray for me.
3 Responses
  1. Mandy Says:

    I am not a fan of little children who make me sick. Maybe you can hit them really hard with a pillow and knock them out? I kid, I kind. Kinda. I agree, something needs to be done with this country's health care, it is broken. Hope you feel better soon.

  2. Katrina Says:

    "like someone lit a match and threw it in my mouth"... great metaphor! Though not a great feeling, I know.

    It's completely understandable that you would be frustrated. And if you were satisfied with all of this, you might not be motivated to keep trying to make it better... and that would be worse! So I would say to let yourself feel this anger and use it as a motivator. And remember that it isn't your fault that the job/insurance situation is the way it is right now.

  3. Kids are just Petri Dishes with limbs....definitely keep your distance.

    "Glee" has been pretty good so far. I had a very different HS experience, so it is interesting to see another side.

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