1. Humidity
  2. Frizzy hair
  3. Unemployment
  4. Rain that seems to NEVER end
  5. Hangovers
What's your favorite song? What makes it your favorite? Is it the lyrics? The music arrangement? Maybe it just touches you at the right moment, and you fall in love. For me, that song is John Mayer's Slow Dancing In A Burning Room. From the very first second, the guitar sounds like it's crying and it sets the mood for the entire song. It's not a happy love song, but one that so many of us can relate to. That raw feeling of knowing it's ending, but wanting so desperately for it not to. I connected with this song right as my relationship was falling to pieces, and it fit so perfectly into every emotion I was feeling. One might think it's a masochistic tendency to keep going back to it, but something about it just draws me back in. I'm done with that part of my life. I've locked the door and thrown away the key. It was a wild and crazy relationship that was filled with so many emotions, but in the end, it wasn't working.


Tonight I was perusing the So You Think You Can Dance forums. I came across a discussion about the Katee/Joshua routine by Wade Robson set to Slow Dancing In A Burning Room. While I loved the routine, and the dancers, it left me wanting more. It's not that I didn't enjoy it when performed by Katua (Katee and Joshua's nickname, of course), but I felt like it lacked something. I then found out that Wade had actually choreographed a longer piece and filmed it with Pam Chu and Ben Susak:

I fell in love with it instantly. Everything about it is filled with so much emotion and intensity, it's almost impossible to take your eyes off the screen in fear that you might miss something. There's a raw, intense passion between the dancers and it's captivating. It's the small things, like how she pounds on his chest at 1:24, and he kicks her from behind at 1:33. The jumping from fighting to loving in a matter of seconds is so powerful. The pain they express is impossible to deny, and your heart breaks for them a million times over. I've watched it at least 10 times tonight already, and everytime I see something new that I hadn't seen the 9 other times before.

It's a dance of destruction, and it couldn't be more beautiful.

I think it has a certain ring to it...no? What about Ohmygoshiify? Let's just say that choosing my facebook vanity URL just got a lot harder!
Lately, I've been at a loss of things to write about. Perhaps it's because I'm feeling slightly on the down side of life right now and I don't want to bring all that negativity here. No one likes Debbie Downer. Four years ago when I started school, I had grand plans of coming out with a fabulous job and doing something GREAT! But then the whole recession thing kicked in, and the markets plummeted, and suddenly it was all "Whoa, what about all the GREAT things I can do! Look at me! Please?! No? Ok....". I'm going stir-crazy right now. It's nice to sit around and do nothing for the first week, maybe two. But after that, the novelty of the idea wears off. There are only so many TV shows I can watch and Tweets I can read without feeling exhausted from doing absolutely nothing. I get tired of looking through job listings all promising "$1000 a week! Entry-level!".

Two nights ago some friends and I ventured out to see good ole' Abe. We had a private showing of some of the nation's great monuments, and it was pretty cool. I sat on the cool, grey, marble steps, looking out at the illuminated Washington Monument and Capital Hill beyond that, and I just took it all in. The sky was dark blue with a pink and orange glow from the city lights. It was cool enough to keep most of the mosquitoes away, but not enough to be cold. I'm tired of being sad and feeling like a huge disappointment. I want to do something GREAT this summer. I don't know what that's going to be yet. I'm thinking of maybe taking a picture everyday and posting it as a sort of memoir for this Summer. Or maybe I'll try to go to a different museum everyday. Maybe I'll try to discover a new musical artist every week. I want to do something different. I want to learn and explore and take advantage of this freedom I've been blessed with. I'm working on a couple of different photo projects right now. I have frames all laid out on my floor as a constant reminder to get it done and up on the wall. Who knows, maybe I'll find my fabulous job on accident while on a great adventure this summer.

What should I do? Help me think of some fun (and cheap) activities to fill my days as I continue to look for a job.
I'm not going to lie...I am really REALLY tired of people asking me "SO! How's the job search going?!". Trust me when I say, that when I get a job, the whole entire world will know. I will shout it from the rooftops and be overly ecstatic about it. But until then, let's just assume I'm still working on it and not bring it up anymore. I get that it's the question everyone wants to ask any new college graduate. But as someone who is currently living it right now, it gets old. It's bad enough that I have panic attacks every day about not being gainfully employed, but when I get questioned about it everytime I talk to someone, it damn near maddening.

Now, moving on to a topic that doesn't involve the letters J-O-B....wait, I don't have much else to talk about. It's kinda boring here in Nowhere Land. The good news is, I'm almost completely caught up on all the TV I missed this season! Just a few more shows to go. I don't know what I'll do when I run out. Anyone have any good ones they can recommend?

Gosh, I'm so pathetic.